The Anticipation Is Here

The month is almost over and I feel like in just this short first month of 2009, I've learned a lot of new things about myself. I hope I never get to the point where I stop wanting to learn and stop evolving. I enjoy trying new things all the time - keeps things interesting. Lately, I've been trying to transition into drinking black coffee. Lauren asks, "Why would you force yourself to like something or have to transition into it?" I really don't have the answer to that, other than I like being able to be as versatile as possible. I've already started with no sugar in my coffee, just some cream - next step, cut out the cream. No idea where I'm getting at with this or why I'm doing it, but I really want to enjoy everything life has to offer in different ways. Maybe it only makes sense to me- and I'm okay with that.

Anticipation has been all over my life this month so far. Anicipating possible job changes, travel plans, weekend plans, upcoming concerts (Lykke Li! Cut/Copy!), you name it. In the matters of the "heart," I've been anticipating really trying to hang out and getting to know this guy who's been relentlessly (in a good way) texting me to "come hang out." I've only met this person in what I can call my most belligerent night of this year so far, so I don't really think that counts. Can you really gain interest and desire through getting to know someone through their Facebook? The modern world is weird like that. Although, some think it's a great thing to have specific avenues like Facebook to be able to "get to know" someone through let's say their music interests or tagged photos- to me, it's scary. I basically start pre-judging and second guessing my anticipation. Perhaps anticipation can be an unfriendly device at times for me, or I just need to grow up and learn to meet people the old fashioned way. Close. Down. The Facebook.

My company's fiscal year ends tomorrow (or well, today), so they're giving me a 1/2 day! After the houseguest debacle, it'll be nice to be able to do my own thing this weekend for 2 1/2 full days. Time to let loose. Catch me if you can.